distraught
i dont wanna die i just want to not exist does that make sense? for the earth to swallow me whole to erase my past and present hole to retract my future in a sheathed glove i am just so tired of keep falling apart killing myself would be a huge sin ive known that how could i not? when every minute spent in His house was filled with flying warning about how ill be burning if i ever choose to act upon this feeling be it the wanting and loving i felt for him or her to the desire of self-annihilating You wanna know the most unfair thing? is that i never asked to be born into this sinning, into this empty longing. then why the fuck am i the one suffering? God, help me getting rid of this fear of living. Yogyakarta, 12th of May 2018 13.13 **Pic isnt mine. Pic is of Billie Eilish tho i wish she is mine. Super talented artist. Go check out her songs!